Do I have high or low self-esteem?

I think I have different levels of self-esteem in each field.

In dancing, I have high self-esteem and pride from my long teaching career.

It comes from many experiences and actual achievements.

I’m able to say I’m good at playing the piano, swimming and reading from childhood, too.

Otherwise, I remember when I was 17 years old, I wanted to go to aboard to master English, but mother said only a smart person who takes top grade can go to study aboard.  I believed her and I gave up asking.

Then, I had an assumption I couldn’t use English subconsciously.

Since my childhood, in spite of I studying English, I couldn’t use English enough. 

It’s not good I blame mother for my English, but it’s good to find my assumption.

So I realize we have self-esteem things which we are comfortable and experienced in, but we tend to think of things we don’t know, as strange and heated. 

That means a simple reason that you are not familiar with from the beginning. 

Therefore, I think experience is important to increase imagination for your next experience and to have high self-esteem.